Note To Self

I wonder why, I was the first in my family, not just immediate but altogether and extended, to have known You.



I wonder, did my life encourage them? And led them to you?



Why, I was almost given up for adoption but did not in the end despite the odds? (not that its a problem)



Why, I wanted to be a boy when I was in primary school? (At 12 years I bet 10 bux with my mom, coz that was a big amount to me; that I would never get a boyfriend and will never get married *cover face cover face*

I was always the odd one out.

Not too long ago, like Mel, I used to think I'd also be a millionaire marking books for my mom. One student's books were equivalent to one class wan okay! But I never did become one coz just couldn't take the details and pains of marking karangan. It was then that I realize why some students, well esp the good students la, were teacher's pets. Teaching them and seeing their eagerness and thirst for knowledge and marking their work blesses you so much more in the end, when I thought I was the one there to impart (yours truly used to teach Maths, unlikely as it sounds. And yes of all subjects!)

Its odd I feel it has all just begun when the truth is I'll be graduating next year. Next year OMG!! I certainly don't feel like I'm turning 22 this year, and Dorene can testify to that. Even SHE doesn't see me as a 22 year old!!

I had a conversation with myself :

You mean you might be working soon?! After next year?

Maybe. If I don't do the BAR/CLP/CBE. If I do it will be another year give and take.

Still. That's so soon!

I know! You don't have to rub it in! Sheesh.

You OLD!!!!

Sheeets NO like I said, ITS JUST STARTING OK!

I only had less than 5 yars of schooling life which I enjoyed leh can't I study somemore before I work my ass of the rest of my life?

Then go study lah who's stopping you! Get masters and phd if you can

Talk so easy la you.

Ya la since you so em kam yin with working!



Faints.


And my friend,

I hope you get better soon. I'm worried and will be praying for you.